May 2012
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[feels a bead of sweat roll down his temple once he doesn’t hear her humming, the pain increasing as he grips the bedsheet]
[sees a nurse walk into the room and continues to hum to him, moving out of the nurses way slightly, but continuing to hold his hand]
[once he heard Ally, he relaxes, the pain killers also making him relax and the pain disappear]
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[he looks peaceful, yet his body was telling him differently. he slightly tightens his hand around hers and frowns in his sleep]
[notes the subtle changes and frowns, reaching over and hitting the button on the side of the bed to call a nurse]
[feels a bead of sweat roll down his temple once he doesn’t hear her humming, the pain increasing as he grips the...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“Come on, bud. It wasn’t nice what you said. I heard you.” Nathan cups Luke’s cheek and kisses the crown of his head. “Mommy’s hurt.”
Luke frowns looking over at him and sighs, nodding before hopping off the bed as he looks at Sam. He shifts his feet, shoving his hands into his pockets and walks over to her with his head hung low, clearing his throat. “I’s sowwy,...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[focuses on her humming and ignores the pain that seems to increase] [Ooc: What song?]
[continues humming to him as she watches his facial expression for any signs of discomfort] [ooc: I think I posted the song on Ally’s playlist like the day before, can’t remember the name haha.]
[he looks peaceful, yet his body was telling him differently. he slightly tightens...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He nods and pulls back to kiss his forehead, wiping his own tears away. “I’d be happy if you apologize to mommy, Luke.”
He looks down sheepishly before looking over at Sam as she lies down on the bed, looking up at the ceiling.
“Come on, bud. It wasn’t nice what you said. I heard you.” Nathan cups Luke’s cheek and kisses the crown of his...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[her hums soothe him as he falls asleep, keeping his hold on her hand]
[she bring her chair closer to his bed, pulling her legs up and holds his hand] [ooc: Oh man, I know what she’s humming too.]
[focuses on her humming and ignores the pain that seems to increase] [Ooc: What song?]
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“I’m sorry, buddy. So sorry.” He wraps his arms around Luke and shuts his eyes, tears falling once more.
Luke buries his face into his neck and pats the back of his head. “It otay daddy, no be sad- pwease? I’s wuv you.”
He nods and pulls back to kiss his forehead, wiping his own tears away. “I’d be happy if you apologize to mommy, Luke.”
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[smiles sleepily and squeezes her hand]
[watches him and smiles slightly, continuing to hum soothingly]
[her hums soothe him as he falls asleep, keeping his hold on her hand]
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[nods and keeps a tight hold onto her hand]
[holds onto his hand, rubbing his knuckles with her thumb and hums softly]
[smiles sleepily and squeezes her hand]
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He looks over at Luke and smiles weakly, scooting over slightly and patting the empty space. “Hey, buddy.” He looks up at Luke and pulls him into a tight hug. “I’m sorry, okay?”
Luke crawls onto the bed and wraps his arms gently around his neck, burying his face. “It otay’s daddy.” She watches them, sitting down on the bed away from them and looks down.
...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[rests a hand on hers] Stay.. I need you..
Okay, I’ll stay- whatever you need. [leans down and kisses his forehead]
[nods and keeps a tight hold onto her hand]
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[nods and lies back down, closing his eyes] I love you… [mumbles as he slowly begins to drift] Sorry…
Likewise handsome. [watches him and moves to the chair] Do you want me to say, or?
[rests a hand on hers] Stay.. I need you..
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“Luke.. I need to apologize..” He breathes heavily, attempting to sit up, but the stitches prevent him from doing so.
Sits up and snaps, pointing at him. “No. Stay where you are. Not that you’re getting up anyways. But you get my point.” Walks over to Luke and gently wakes him. “Your daddy wants you buddy.” Luke bolts up, looking over at Nathan and tries to...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I love you. I’m so sorry. [breathes heavily as he shuts his eyes]
[kisses his temple, nodding] It’s okay, I’ll always forgive you- you’re my best friend and I love you too.
[nods and lies back down, closing his eyes] I love you… [mumbles as he slowly begins to drift] Sorry…
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He continues apologizing as the tears streams down his cheeks and to the collar of her shirt. His hold on her never loosens as he feels the pain come again.
Sam holds him tightly, biting her lip as a few tears leak at the corner of her eyes and she kisses his forehead. “It’s okay, I love you- that’ll never change, no matter what.”
“Luke.. I need to...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I hurt you.. [shakes his head and let’s tears fall]
[looks down at him and rests her cheek against the tip of his head] And I hurt you too.. I’m not innocent. I still love you.
I love you. I’m so sorry. [breathes heavily as he shuts his eyes]
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All my characters are depressed except for Rachel and Kris. Bichel is getting it on, as usual. Julian is making fun of Kris. Nothing new there.
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[looks over at her and pulls her into a tight hug, crying silently against her shoulder] I’m sorry for everything…
Hey, Nathan- It’s me, it’s okay.. I’m one of the man who love you unconditionally. [kisses his temple, wrapping her arms around him gently]
I hurt you.. [shakes his head and let’s tears fall]
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“I don’t- I’m sorry…” His sobs increases as he holds onto her tightly, the tears flowing freely as he nuzzles her neck to hide the pain in his eyes.
She remains silent, letting him cry at against her and threads her fingers through his hair, kissing the top of his head softly.
He continues apologizing as the tears streams down his cheeks and to the collar of...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I just want acceptance… [looks away]
[looks down] I accept you.. You’re a great man, a excellent father, and an amazing best friend, anyone who doesn’t see that, is stupid and I’m talking everyone.
[looks over at her and pulls her into a tight hug, crying silently against her shoulder] I’m sorry for everything…
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“I’m sorry..” He buries his face into her neck and lets a few tears fall, his head shaking quickly. “I’m sorry..”
She shakes her head and kisses his forehead, nodding. “It’s going to be okay.” Sam closes her eyes, pushing away the forming tears she felt building in her eyes.
“I don’t- I’m sorry…” His sobs increases as he holds onto...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
Yes, I do.
Really? Because from where I’m standing, no you really don’t. You’re guilty of being you, that’s it- you can’t change who you are.
I just want acceptance… [looks away]
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[shakes his head quickly as he shuts his eyes] I’m sorry…
[pulls away and sits down, looking away from him] You don’t have any reason to be sorry.
Yes, I do.
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He laughs softly and shakes his head, looks down before looking back up at her. “I’m just saying-” He sighs and shrugs. “I don’t like seeing you cry.”
“I know-” Kisses the tip of his nose and nods, frowns slightly. “I know..”
“I’m sorry..” He buries his face into her neck and lets a few tears fall, his head shaking quickly. “I’m...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[lets a tear fall and shakes his head] I disappoint them.
I doubt that, Nathan.. They love you unconditionally.
[shakes his head quickly as he shuts his eyes] I’m sorry…
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[shakes his head and avoids her gaze, his eyes getting glassy] Why can’t I do anything right?
[furrows her brow, moving closer to the bed and hooks a finger under his chin] Look at me, that is not true- you’ve got an amazing son and a gorgeous wife. I’d say that’s you doing something right.
[lets a tear fall and shakes his head] I disappoint them.
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He nods, looking down at her seriously as he wipes her tears away swiftly. “Stop crying… Not a good look for you. Plus, it sort of breaks my heart.”
“Are you saying that I look ugly when I cry, that’s not nice.” Looks up at him with a straight solemn face, lifting the corner of his mouth. “Sorry..”
He laughs softly and shakes his head, looks down before looking...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
It just- I don’t know. I feel as if everything I’ve done- No one approves.. It just hurts and last night was my breaking point..
[sighs, resting her chin on her fist] I know, hon- that would explain the scenery. I’m sorry- I wish I could take it all back for you, to make it easier.
[shakes his head and avoids her gaze, his eyes getting glassy] Why can’t I do...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I started it.
I continued it. This could go on and on, Nathan- it happened, we can’t take it back and to be quite honest. I don’t think that I’d want to, yeah- it’s a bitch, but sometimes things are meant to happen. [shrugs] Besides, don’t regret anything that you wanted. I guess that’s the saying, but this right here- right now? We did nothing wrong.
It just- I...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He wraps an arm around her shoulders, his thumb running along her upper arm as he shuts his eyes. “I’m throwing my gun away. For good.” He rests his lips at her temple and sighs. “I’m sorry..”
She kisses his shoulder, nodding and looks up at him, with wide concerned eyes as she gnaws at her lower lip. “Really?” Kisses his cheek and closes her eyes, her tears...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
Can’t. [shrugs and glances at her]
[sighs, shaking her head] It’s not your fault.
It sort of is..
Takes two to tango.
I started it.
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“Not your fault.” He sighs and gently tugs on her hand, pulling her to lie with him as he glances at Luke and sighs. “I don’t think I could ever leave you two..”
She looks at him cautiously before lying in the bed next to him and kisses his cheek. “Sort of is my fault, my mouth- my actions.” Shrugs, looking over at Luke before resting her forehead lightly against...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
Can’t. [shrugs and glances at her]
[sighs, shaking her head] It’s not your fault.
It sort of is..
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
No. [shakes his head] This is about me, right now. Not you, Ally..
This is also very true, so stop blaming yourself. [shrugs]
Can’t. [shrugs and glances at her]
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
Nathan tucks a few strands of hair behind her ear, his thumb brushing along her cheek. “You know he didn’t m- mean it..” He lets his eyes soften as he keeps his hand at her cheek.
“No, I don’t.” Sighs softly, looking up at him and frowns, leaning into his touch. “I deserved it though, I completely snapped last night and I acted like an idiot, saying things I...
Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
That people would get angry.. Especially Larry.. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.
Hey, look at me- it is a stupid list, it means nothing. I’m sorry that it came crashing down on you, but I know the difference. Okay? [shrugs] This all boils down to me being loose apparently.
No. [shakes his head] This is about me, right now. Not you, Ally..
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I should have known.. [wipes his eyes and looks away from her]
Should of known what? [furrows her brow]
That people would get angry.. Especially Larry.. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I shouldn’t have posted that list..
Nathan, it is just a list- in the grand scheme of things, you and I both know that Sam comes first, there was nothing meant by it. People blew it out of proportion, per normal- that or they decided to run their mouths.
I should have known.. [wipes his eyes and looks away from her]
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
He shut his eyes and leans into her touch, squeezing her hand gently. “Luke..?” He opens his eyes and glances around, seeing his son sleeping as he sighs once more. “I didn’t- I’m sorry..”
Looks over at Luke then back down at Nathan and sighs softly. “I know. He hasn’t been sleeping well so, I’ll give him a few minute and wake him up.” She says, mainly not wanting...
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I didn’t mean to.. [looks down and sighs heavily] I’m sorry..
I know you didn’t, Nathan. [sighs, tilting her head]
I shouldn’t have posted that list..
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[nods and looks over at her] Think I scared everyone.. [sighs heavily] Still sorry.
Yeah, you really did- especially my husband.. [tilts her head] Everyone was fighting last night..
I didn’t mean to.. [looks down and sighs heavily] I’m sorry..
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“Never meant t- to hurt you..” Their eyes held a gaze that they hadn’t had in a while. It was as if he was back to her studio for the first time, seeing her for the first time, and remembering how she eased the pain away.
“I know you didn’t.” Tilts her head, never breaking the eye contact they held and sighs softly, contentedly before leaning forward to kiss his...
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
I can’t move, so, just think as if I’m h- hugging you. [smiles and turns his head slightly and kisses her temple] Sorry.
I got it. [smiles slightly, looking over at him and kisses his forehead before sitting down] Hey, it’s okay- Just scared me, you know?
[nods and looks over at her] Think I scared everyone.. [sighs heavily] Still sorry.
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Nathan | Allison →
ally-paul:
nathangardner:
[smiles weakly] I- I’m okay.. Sore all over. [arches a brow slightly] Can I get a h- hug?
Yeah, getting shot will do that to you and fighting. [sighs softly] You’re going to be the death of me, you know that? [nods, leaning down to hug him gently] Of course, you can always get a hug.
I can’t move, so, just think as if I’m h- hugging you. [smiles and...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
“S-” He coughs slightly and looks back up at her. “Sorry, sweetheart..” He looks into her eyes, getting lost into them as if it was the first time they met.
“Shh. It doesn’t matter right now, okay?” She moves her chair closer to the bed, looking deeply into his eyes and keeps her lips against his knuckles.
“Never meant t- to hurt you..” Their eyes...
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ally-paul:
nathangardner replied to your post: My best friend’s in the hospital, I’m going blind, and I beat the shit out of a cu- I mean.. never mind.
[coughs slightly and looks at her weakly] If you go bl- blind, you won’t be able to s- see my handsome face..
[looks down at him and sighs softly, pointing] If I didn’t love you so damn much I’d be pissed. [frowns] How you feeling?
[smiles...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
Nathan smiles weakly, looking deeply into her eyes once his own open completely. “Love you too.. Fo- forever…” He tilts his head and smiles slightly up at her.
“And always.” She says, looking into his eyes and lifts the corner of her lips slightly, rubbing his knuckles with the pad of her thumb.
“S-” He coughs slightly and looks back up at her....
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
Nathan keeps his eyes shut, but smiles weakly. He slightly tightens his hand around hers with as much strength he could muster, which was not all that much seeing as how he lost a lot of blood. He takes a deep breath and slowly opens his eyes, looking over at her. “I c- can feel you..”
Sam’s eyes snap to his and she leans forward, sighing of relief. “Nathan..”...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
The pain slowly disappears as he slightly moves his fingers, his whole body aching and sore. His heart rate slows to a regular beat as he groans out Sam’s name, his voice raspy.
She sits down into the chair, looking at him as she hears her voice come from him and takes his hand into hers. Sam lifts his knuckles to her lips and kisses them gently. “I love you,...
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sam-gardner:
nathangardner:
Nathan attempts to move any part of his body, but fails miserably. As the irritation grew inside of him, his heart rate rose. The more angry he got with himself, the quicker his chest heaved. All he wanted was to go back and be with his family.
The nurse rushes forward as Sam stands and pushes herself back against the wall, her eyes never leaving him. She looks...