*sighs contentedly* Still feeling okay?
Yup. *kisses her temple*
November 2011
At the park.
Larry looked up at Nathan and frowned. He stood up and pulled him by the scruff of his shirt and slammed him against the wall, his voice cracking with his next words. “God dammit, Nathan! Stop! Just cut it out. I don’t want everyone I know to end up in the hospital!” Some of Nathan’s blood dripped onto him and he sighed in frustration, shoving Nathan against the wall and sitting back down. “Calm down, man.” He now had Ally’s and Nathan’s blood mixed into his shirt. Great.
She let out a sigh of frustration and screamed at the ceiling. “GOD DAMMIT NATHAN!” Let him feel that, that’s all she asked for, let them feel her if they couldn’t see her but that would be nice too. Bad enough she was stuck in a hospital bed.
He heard something, but shook it off. Turning his attention to Larry. “How the hell am I supposed to calm down when Ally has an 85 percent chance of not making it, Larry?!” He stood up again and looked Larry dead in the eye. “You don’t fucking get it! She’s in critical condition! I can’t just sit around here and do nothing, Larry.”
*giggles and kisses his neck*
*smiles and holds her close*
At the park.
He swallowed again and let out a breath that he didn’t know he was holding. Tears streamed down his face and he pulled Nathan up by the collar of his shirt and sat him down in a seat. He just nodded at the doctor. “Thanks.” His voice was weak and hoarse and her statistic of Ally’s chance of life stabbed at his heart over and over and over again. He sat next to Nathan and rubbed the back of his neck, crying silently.
Stuck in her thoughts again. This sucks. Really? It’s not pleasant, the only thing that kept replaying in her head was the gun shot. Over and over. The feeling of the bullet tearing its way into her chest. With that she was yanked from her body quickly, so quickly in fact that she was completely disoriented as she looked around. Immediately spotting Larry, and Nathan.. Both crying.. Both breaking her heart instantly. She pushed her presence at them. “Look at me.”
Slowly but surely, Nathan’s anger boiled as he stood up and hit the wall, tears continuing to fall from his cheeks. “Damn it!” He yelled, hitting the wall countless times, reopening the cuts from earlier. He could care less right now about his health or his knuckles, or anything, the only thing he did care about was making sure Ally was getting out of here alive and well.
*hits him playfully* I said we're cute! Not just you!
*laughs and hugs her tighter*
At the park.
Swallows thickly and leaves the cafeteria, his coffee untouched. He walks back into the waiting room and sees Nathan talking to a doctor and he walks over to them, his heart bubbling with anticipation.
She rubbed her forearm nervously as she sees another man walk up to them. Covered in blood so surely, he was supposed to be there. “I’m going to tell you right now, it’s not good.” She paused as she looked between the two trying to judge the relation. “She is alive, in critical condition. As for how she’s doing, we don’t expect her to be waking up for awhile. Now this is just a guess, we don’t know this for sure.” She sighed and looked down here was the hard part. “There is a 85 percent chance she won’t make it. The damage to the pulmonary artery is extensive. Though we did manage to locate the bullet from her heart successfully. Whatever or whoever, missed by mere centimeters. Any further to the right and she would have been dead instantly.” After she finished she just stood there, she wasn’t going to leave until she knew they understood everything she’d said.
Once Nathan heard the chance of Ally not making it, he slumped to the floor, letting the tears overflow him. This couldn’t be happening. No. He held his face in his hands as he continued to cry in pain.
*grins and pecks his lips* We're cute.
I know I am. *smirks*
I love you.
I love you. *smiles*
I love your eyes.
I love your smile.
At the park.
He rested his head on the table and let the tears drip onto it carelessly, not even bothering to wipe his eyes. If she didn’t make it through this.. what was the point of even being here anymore? Here in this room.. at work.. on this planet. He knotted his hands in his hair, not caring if her blood stained that too.
The doctors continued, struggling, but hey… good news was they finally got a heartbeat. “I highly doubt she’ll be waking up for awhile. It would shock me if she did. Someone should go notify the family.” Well, shit.. though that wasn’t necessarily shocking now was it?
As the female doctor walked down the hall and outside the O.R she looked down at her gown. Blood. She looked around the room trying to locate anyone, who might have been with the woman she’d just helped bring back. There was one lone man, she’d start there, taking a breath as she walked over to him quickly. “Are you here with a gun shot patient?”
Nathan wondered where Larry was when he was interrupted by his thoughts when a nurse came by. “Yeah, her name is Allison Mcbeal-Paul. How is she? Is she alive? Is she stable?” So many questions to ask, he didn’t know where to begin. “Can we see her?” He needed to see her, even if she hadn’t made it through.
*grins and looks into his eyes*
*caresses her cheek*
*kisses his chin* I know. I was joking.
Okay, good. *smiles and pecks her lips*
*smirks* Did I say our children? I meant my children.
*arches an eyebrow* No, our children.
At the park.
He felt cold and Nathan’s pacing didn’t do anything to calm him down. He slowly got up, feeling the puffiness of his eyes and he made his way to the cafeteria. His wedding ring was stained with blood. His shirt was stained, as were his hands. He looked down and saw her blood on his knees from where it was pooling around her. Once he got to the cafeteria, he grabbed a coffee and sat down at one of the tables, letting a few more tears leak from his eyes.
“Clear…” She was seriously sitting there, again. Really? Ally, what was the point? Oh yeah, to save Perry. The doctors continued their work, continuously, relentlessly. For some reason she wished they’d just stop, it was hurting more and more. Shot through the heart.. Hm, this shit hurt. Of all the heartbreak she’d felt, and thought was the end of her entire world.. Now she was realizing.. It was no match to this. Hell even what she’d felt before was no match. Surprising, that one was pretty bad. “Are we going to call it?” Those words echo’d in her ears.. ‘Call it.’ No, if they called it she’d break more than one promise and she just couldn’t let that happen.
Nathan finally sat down, his elbows resting on his knees and his head in his hands. He finally let the tears fall as it hit the ground. He didn’t know if Ally was okay or if she wasn’t. And it hurt to think negatively, but those were hte only thoughts that came to mind.
*smiles ands plays with his hair* I like your hair. I hope our children have your hair.
Our children.. *looks up at the ceiling and beams*
*nods and pecks his lips* I can't wait.
Neither can I. *smiles wide*
At the park.
He stepped out of the car and sprinted behind Nathan. He followed him closely, dodging a few cars and they walked into the waiting room of the hospital. He looked around for any sign of Ally and sighed inwardly when he didn’t see every staff member in the hospital attending to her. He sat heavily in one of the chairs and closed his eyes.
The feeling began coming back as she felt the doctors working on her. “Keep your heart beating. Keep your heart beating. Keep your heart beating.” Suddenly, a surge of pain surged through her and again with the screaming. Really? The screaming, was it really necessary. She just wanted to be in pain, in peace. Was that so much to ask for? Then as if she’d totally over looked it.. She heard the beeping go flat. “Fuck.”
Nathan paced back and forth in the waiting room, waiting for some kind of news about Ally’s condition. He saw Larry and sighed to himself, he knew he was broken, hell, so was he, but if Ally had .. died, Larry would be one with the biggest loss.
*faces him* Mhm. And I responded immediately.
*smiles* Getting used to it already, huh?
*bites her lip and smiles up at him* You know, when they came to wake me up after your surgery, they called me Mrs. Gardner.
*smiles wide and lies down next to her* Did they?
At the park.
He glanced at his bloody hands and shirt and let out a shaky breath. Once he got into Nathan’s car, he rested his head against the cool window, crying quietly. He closed his eyes and could feel himself tremble all over. He put his glasses on the dashboard and rubbed his eyes with his wrist. The ambulance pulled away and it tugged at his heart violently. Ally was in the back.. an inch from death.
She felt nothing more, well sort of she didn’t feel the pain exactly. What she did feel although was them trying to keep her heart beating. Hearing the frantic screams of the medics. But never fully feeling it, she knew they were doing something they had to be. Though, how much blood could possibly be left, surely the blood would completely drain from her. Soon though she felt herself being hoisted, feeling the bumping and the wind rushing across her skin. Must already be at the hos-…..”Fuck NO! They’ll fucking kill me here for sure!” After a short time the movement stopped, and the screaming began again.. Had Larry and Nathan followed or were they still with Perry.. Her mind raced.. then suddenly in her ears echoed a distant beeping. “Get the O.R prep’d now! We don’t have time.” After some time the movement began again and she assumed the doctors would begin doing their bidding.
Finally, they arrived at the hospital, practically parking at the first empty spot he saw. He waited for Larry to follow him before running into the entrance, almost getting hit by a car or two. Hospitals had always given him bad vibes, but today, it just didn’t feel right.
Love you too. *looks up at his scar and runs her fingers through his hair* Are you sure you're okay?
Never been better, love. *smiles*
*smiles up at him and shakes her head* Too bad.
*pouts and leans down to peck her lips quickly* Love you.
*giggles and pecks his lips* You don't need any more of an ego boost than I've already given you.
*pouts* Aw. But, I love it when you inflate my ego, baby.
*smiles and shakes her head* Well, you're kinda hot.
Kinda? *playfully looks shocked*
At the park.
He saw blood residing in her mouth and he continued to cry over her, unable to take the pain of seeing her like this. “No, you’re gonna be fine, baby. You’ll make it.” He felt someone’s hand on his shoulder and he was suddenly being pulled away from her. He fought back with every ounce of strength in him, almost getting away from one of the medics. Another one came over and they pushed him to the ground, keeping him restrained. “Sir, calm down!” He shook his head as he sobbed violently. “No! Help her, God Dammit! She’s d-” He couldn’t bring himself to let the word slip from his mouth. “Ally, please!” He tried to get up, but they held him to the pavement.
A tear trickled down her cheek as someones hands or multiple peoples hands started pressing down on her wound. Her body convulsing involuntarily. “We need to get her in that ambulance NOW! Move!” Feeling her body being lifts as the world rocked. They cleared the blood from her mouth as they placed a mask over her to help her breathe. Why? What was the point? She couldn’t breathe anyways.. Every time she did it hurt. She looked over at Nathan and Perry, thinking. ‘I forgive you, Perry. I forgive you.’ Seeing Larry on the ground and extended her hand, as everything faded out. “GET HER IN THERE NOW! We’re losing her! GO! NOW!” There was no more pain, and no more blood to smother her. ‘I’m so sorry.’
*He saw Nathan coming back. Was he gonna finish what he started? He really hoped he would. Instead, Nathan just picked him up and made him sit up near a bench. Why? Why would he just finish him? He saw Ally. Bleeding heavily from her chest. Blood came out of her mouth. What has he done?! This wasn’t suppose to happen! The ambulance arrived and the paramedics were taking care of Ally, trying to keep Larry at a distance. One of the medics came over to Perry. He didn’t pay attention to the medic, he just kept his eyes on Ally. He looked up at Nathan and he stretched his arm out to him, resting his hand on Nathan’s shoulder and said* Go.. Help Larry.. Make sure Ally… will survive.. *he passed out*
Once the paramedics attended to both Ally and Perry, Nathan slowly walked over to Larry, putting a hand on his shoulder as he sat on the pavement with him, staring at the stain of blood that Ally had left. “Larry, we need to go. Come on.” He sighed and got up, grabbing Larry by the elbow as they both walked to his car and on to the road to the hospital.
*slides her tongue through his lips*
*smiles and pulls away* Can’t get enough of me?
Really, no choice huh? [laughs]
Yup. And if you … go away forever, then I’m coming to you.
And then I’ll have no choice but to dropkick you.
[chuckles] As long as I’ll be with you.
*wraps her arms around his neck and pulls him closer*
*smiles and kisses her slowly*
*thrashes on the bed wildly, gasping for air as she laughs* Stop!
*leans down and kisses her slowly*
allymcbeal-paul replied to your post: /[smiles weakly] I never told you how much I loved it when you called me Allison did I?/
ooc; Ask limit -_- /Yes, I do believe you are the only one.. After Billy, that I can actually say that to. [nods]/
[smiles] Really?
[nods and lets a smile play along her lips] Really.
In that case, you have no choice to come back then.
Really, no choice huh? [laughs]
Yup. And if you … go away forever, then I’m coming to you.
allymcbeal-paul replied to your post: /[smiles weakly] I never told you how much I loved it when you called me Allison did I?/
ooc; Ask limit -_- /Yes, I do believe you are the only one.. After Billy, that I can actually say that to. [nods]/
[smiles] Really?
[nods and lets a smile play along her lips] Really.
In that case, you have no choice to come back then.
*tries to grab his hands* No I'm not!
*pins both her hands with one hand and tickles her with the other*
At the park.
He sobbed over her, pressing the shirt into her chest. “Ally, please! I need you! Don’t leave me!” His hands were already soaked in her blood and his heart clenched painfully. As she spoke, more tears tell down his face. “I know it hurts, baby. Just stay with me.” He looked up and saw Nathan beating the shit out of Perry. Son of a bitch deserves it. Anger boiled within him and he tried his hardest to stay at her side and not go over and kill Perry himself. He took her hand and kissed at, the blood pouring endlessly from her wound.
She tried, for them.. though it was hard the blood was building in the back of her throat. Finally, she started to make out an outline, just faintly letting the tears spill down her face. “Am…I….dy-i-ng?” She choked on the blood letting it flow from her mouth as she spoke. With every passing second his figure became clearer, she heard is sobbing and felt his tears as they fell..”Shh…do-n’t cr-ry ba…by.” The pain violently rippled through her as her body began to convulse. That was when the screams finally came out, as she felt the warmth fading out.
*He just kept on looking at Nathan, even though he was getting weaker and weaker. He did his best to keep his eyes open. Nathan pushed him against the wall and grabbed him by the throat. Then Nathan hit his jaw. It cracked. Great, he broke my jaw. The strange thing was that he couldn’t feel the pain. He didn’t feel a thing. Nathan dropped him. He was yelling at him, yet he couldn’t hear the words coming out of his mouth. A kick in his ribs followed. No pain, but no air either. But he didn’t gas for air. Another kick in his ribs and he felt his ribs fracturing. Still, no pain, still, no air. Then it was over. Nathan ran towards Ally. Why? Why didn’t he just finish the job? Why didn’t he kill him? He didn’t have much strength left in his body, but he managed to say two last words* Kill… me….
He looked over at Ally, noticing the color of her skin disappearing slowly, her breathing began to slow. Hesitantly, he left her with Larry, going back over to Perry, hearing those two words. He felt for the guy, honestly. He sighed, grabbing him by his arm and picking him up, bringing him to sit down near a bench. “Damn it, Perry. You make people want to kill you, I don’t know why, but I’m not one of those people. Though, if Ally does not make it out of this alive, I’m coming after you.” With that being said, he heard the sirens of the ambulance as medics attended to both Perry and Ally.
ooc; Ask limit -_- /Yes, I do believe you are the only one.. After Billy, that I can actually say that to. [nods]/
[smiles] Really?
/[smiles weakly] I never told you how much I loved it when you called me Allison did I?/
[smiles sadly] Do you?
*giggles and squirms under his hands* No!
*flips them over, tickling her sides* Aw, my baby is ticklish.
*laughs wildly and squirms away from him* No I'm not!
*smirks* Ticklish?
/I love you too, Nathan./
So much. [rubs his forehead]
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“No problem.” He smiled and washed the blood off his hands. “Look at that, I’m your knight in shining armor.” He joked.
She rolled her eyes and laughed softly “Looks like it” she moved her hand to her back, pressing lightly on the spot that was kicked
He dried his hand and looked at her, sighing. “We’ll be quick. I’ll even give you a massage when we pig out. Sound good?”
“You should really stop sighing, it ruins how handsome you are” She smiled, leaning against the bathroom wall “If you would like to, I’m not forcing you.”
“I’m not handsome..” He looked at her seriously. “I’m sexy.” He flipped his hair playfully and brought her outside to buy candy. “I don’t mind giving you a massage. As long as you give me one too.”
“Oh sorry I mean it ruins how sexy you are” she smirked slightly as the walked outside the bathroom, walking to the candy aisle. “Deal” she stuck out her hand for him to shake, smiling softly.
He shook her hand, “You shook on it. By the way, you’ll be giving me a massage first.” He smirked and shook it before grabbing about ten packets of different candy.
“That is not fair” she stuck her tongue out at him and rolling her eyes. Grabbing other types of junk food for them to snack on “I am definitely going to need to go to the gym now”
He laughe an brought their junk food tothe cashier, beginning to pay for it. “You and me both.”
She pulled out her wallet, pulling out some cash, ready to pay for at least half or even more “I’ll buy” she smiled at him
He shook his head, paying for it before she did and grabbed the bags, heading back to the car. “You must be crazy to think I’d let you pay.”
/Hey, that was the hardest thing I've ever done.... you know, aside from this that is.... Like I told you I'll do everything I can, for as long as I can. Until my heart stops beating/
[sighs] I love you.
*buries her face in his chest* I don't know what you're talking about?
*smiles and looks down at her* You’re blushing! *tickles her*
/You thought wrong.. I don't know how else I could have showed you, Nathan../
[sighs] You easily just said goodbye, so I thought.. Never mind. Just come back to me. I don’t wanna say goodbye just yet.
*giggles and shakes her head* No.
*smiles and looks down at her* Yes you are.
/Oh no you won't don't you dare steal my thunder Mr. Gardner. [sighs] I never wanted to say goodbye, Nathan../
[sighs] I thought that’s what you wanted. That’s why I left..
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“No problem.” He smiled and washed the blood off his hands. “Look at that, I’m your knight in shining armor.” He joked.
She rolled her eyes and laughed softly “Looks like it” she moved her hand to her back, pressing lightly on the spot that was kicked
He dried his hand and looked at her, sighing. “We’ll be quick. I’ll even give you a massage when we pig out. Sound good?”
“You should really stop sighing, it ruins how handsome you are” She smiled, leaning against the bathroom wall “If you would like to, I’m not forcing you.”
“I’m not handsome..” He looked at her seriously. “I’m sexy.” He flipped his hair playfully and brought her outside to buy candy. “I don’t mind giving you a massage. As long as you give me one too.”
“Oh sorry I mean it ruins how sexy you are” she smirked slightly as the walked outside the bathroom, walking to the candy aisle. “Deal” she stuck out her hand for him to shake, smiling softly.
He shook her hand, “You shook on it. By the way, you’ll be giving me a massage first.” He smirked and shook it before grabbing about ten packets of different candy.
“That is not fair” she stuck her tongue out at him and rolling her eyes. Grabbing other types of junk food for them to snack on “I am definitely going to need to go to the gym now”
He laughe an brought their junk food tothe cashier, beginning to pay for it. “You and me both.”
*blushes and puts her cheek on his chest* Stop..
*chuckles* Are you blushing, baby?
/I'll do what I can. If....you know anything happens.... Just know I'm so haunting you. All because I can./
Then I’ll be right there with you and we can haunt people together. [sighs] We were never meant to say goodbye, Ally.
/I'm right here, Nathan. I'm right here./
Okay, keep it that way, beautiful.
*beams up at him* I love you.
*smiles* Who knew you were my lucky charm.
You are going to lose Ally forever. She bleeding out and there's nothing you can do about it! She is going to die! Face it, Nathan!
Fuck you. Do you wanna die next?